D. H. Lawrence

“When we get out of the glass bottles of our ego,
and when we escape like squirrels turning in the
cages of our personality
and get into the forests again,
we shall shiver with cold and fright
but things will happen to us
so that we don't know ourselves.


Cool, unlying life will rush in,
and passion will make our bodies taut with power,
we shall stamp our feet with new power
and old things will fall down,
we shall laugh, and institutions will curl up like
burnt paper.”

“Life and love are life and love, 

a bunch of violets is a bunch of violets, 

and to drag in the idea of a point is to ruin everything. 

Live and let live, 

love and let love, 

flower and fade, 

and follow the natural curve, 

which flows on, 

pointless.”

Summer in bloom

Spelsbury, you are a beauty.

 

Spring 16

It' been a beautiful season so far. It's a pleasure to see how much things change in this magical garden day-to-day as nature takes it's course.

 This little pussycat has become quite familiar with me now. Still quite a wild one but he is partial to climbing through the window into my office from time to time.

Wisteria showing off all over the place. Such a dramatic plant. 

So so beautiful and smells like bubblegum. 

 Cherry Blossom petals, my favourite. Preferably when they're on the tree but the look equally beautiful when they're drifting through the air in the wind, and on the floor like a carpet.

 Forget-me-not, AKA the cutest little flowers.

This garden is full of segments of one colour blocks, and when one flower comes to the end of it's cycle, something else comes up in it's place.

Requiem for the American Dream

In this staggering and insightful documentary, Noam Chomsky explores corruption in policies and the dismantling of democracy. Built up with decades of research and studies, delivered in this highly accessible and understandable film, we are brought into the mind of one of this century's most influential and thought provoking philosophers.

Watch the trailer

Official Synopsis:

"In his final long-form documentary interview - filmed over four years - Chomsky unpacks the principles that have brought us to the crossroads of historically unprecedented inequality. Tracing a half-century of policies designed to favor the most wealthy at the expense of the majority, Chomsky lays bare the costly debris left in its wake: the evisceration of the American worker, disappearance of the living wage, collapse of the dream of home ownership, skyrocketing higher education costs placing betterment beyond reach or shackling students to suffocating debt, and a loss of solidarity that has left us divided against ourselves."

One can't help but feel more depressed than optimistic after watching, given the evident diligence and persistence of corporate powers driven by greed, prevailing. It seems like a hopeless battle; policies continue to be changed or manipulated to aid the interest of the powerful minority, while the masses suffer.

This film itself gives me optimism, the very fact that we are lucky enough in today's world to share information so easily via the internet. Today, film creation and social media are in my opinion, the two most prominent methods of sharing ideas and knowledge effectively, to the masses. Those who are happily going through life ignorant, or unsympathetic to injustice may stumble upon a thought provoking, sometimes life changing documentary or seminar online, that disturbs what they always understood to be true. We may post something online and spark a conversation that brings in information. More and more we are able to educate ourselves freely, and question what we are taught to be right and wrong.

Chomsky highlights the importance of people coming together and making themselves heard through effort and sacrifice. It all sounds like a lot of work doesn't it? To go up against The Man. It is so much easier to go through life blissfully ignorant... if you're not the oppressed. For the oppressed, where often quality of life is subsequently taken away due to the lack of understanding or empathy from those in control of wealth distribution and power (thus financial distribution to social programs), there is no other choice than to come together and disrupt the silence, to say NO, this isn't right, this needs to change.

Throughout history we have seen over and over again how easy it can be for people to be manipulated and brain washed; common scaremongering tactics, encouraging the oppressed majority to fear one another, to only think about ones self - creating an irrational people who make decisions based on fear or greed. However, we have also seen how other human emotions that are born within us cannot be suppressed. I believe we are generally naturally sympathetic creatures, it feels more comfortable to love than to hate, we are not being true to our natural selves if we live our lives by these negative attitudes. Warped powers try to drive them out because we are easier to control if we are scared. Imagine a world where people notice inequalities for what they really are, and instead of being encouraged to fear and disengage ourselves, we are encouraged to sympathise and engage - this won't do for the powerful minority as it is disruptive - far better for them if we feel as though it is not our problem to deal with, to show selfishness rather than solidarity.

We are so capable of doing wonderful things in our short existence as human beings, let us remember that. We are not stupid, ignorant followers, we are individuals with massive potential. We were not born to fear our neighbours or to ignore the needs of the less privileged. Let's continue to exploit these new ways of being heard to create a better, fairer society - because if we go along with the corporate, privatized, money fuelled society that we're headed toward, which Chomsky quite rightly describes as 'ugly' - in my opinion, it won't be long before the end of the human race. 

Marina Abramovic - Balkan Erotic Epic

 

I stumbled upon this odd but interesting piece by Abramovic via the amazing (and highly recommended) The New Yorker Presents series, I had heard of her previously through her project called The Artist is Present. The New Yorker Presents is, in my opinion, such a successful translation of a magazine to the big screen. It's so diverse, funny and insightful. The viewer is kept engaged because each segment is so different and captivating. Is this the beginning of the end of printed magazines?! Surely not. We won't need to be able to read soon, how frightening!

Anyway, back to this weird and wonderful piece by Marina Abramovic (next bit copied from Youtube):
"According to its creator, the piece Balkan Erotic Epic “is part of the studies about Balkan popular culture, as well as her own use of eroticism. Human beings pretends to become through it, in beings similar to gods. In popular culture -she continues- the woman is married to the Sun, and man with the Moon in order to preserve the secret of creative energy; through eroticism one gets in touch with the indestructible cosmic energy”.

In her research for this work, Abramovic consulted old manuscripts, and analyzed medieval pagan rites, rooted since the Middle Ages in Slavic culture. Then, and thanks to the collaboration of a Serbian film production, she did a casting with common people for these old rituals to be registered in film: “Obscene objects -says the artist- as well as male and female genitalia, have a very important function, linked especially to the rites of nature, as those linked to the fertility of the land and the emergence of rain. Men are not ashamed to show their erect penis or during ejaculation; in the same way that women showed their vagina, their ass, their breasts, and even their blood during menstruation. Western culture vulgarized these facts.”




Are you freaked out? Yeah, me too!

Bride-to-be

Possibly the most exciting day so far this year.. I found my wedding dress! I had done a lot of research prior to this trip, I knew I wanted something specific, and thankfully I found exactly what I'd hoped for.

I found the designer on Pinterest and stalked her deeply until I finally went for my appointment; all of her dresses are custom made so I was almost certain that I could get something beautiful there, I was just a little concerned about my budget, but luckily we were able to find ways of making it cost effective.

I met with the lovely Lucy who strapped me up in all this body shaping gear and put me in the most beautiful gown I have ever set eyes on. I felt like a bride. I had only tried on dresses on one other occasion and hadn't had that feeling. This felt right. 

 I had my beautiful friend/made-of-honour with me, along with my mother of course. It really was a special experience and got me so so excited for the day I actually walk down the aisle to become a Molloy. Can't wait to do the same with this babe before her wedding in 2018. 

 In the boy's homeland earlier on this month. I love being anywhere with him but there's something special about the west coast of Ireland, perhaps it's the spirit of the generations of Molloy's that walked those lands before him that I should thank for him being here at all.

Move on up!

Hush now child, and don't you cry. Your folks might understand you by and by. Move on up towards your destination. You may find from time to time , Complications

Bite your lip and take a trip. Though there may be wet road ahead, You cannot slip, Just move on up and peace you will find, Into the steeple of beautiful people, Where there's only one kind


So hush now child and don't you cry. Your folks might understand you by and by. Just move on up and keep on wishing. Remember your dreams are your only schemes, So keep on pushing Take nothing less - not even second best, And do not obey - you must have your say, You can past the test

Move on up!

 

VIBES

Someone's put a J Dilla beat behind Lauryn Hill & Erykah Badu reading poetry separately, it's a vibey situation. 

 Power in music, power in words. 

Upworthy : Kim Raff

A great article posted on Upworthy this month (click the pic), about Monroe County jail farm, where inmates and abandoned or abused animals build relationships and learn to love again. This really touched me, I think it's such a great idea. I often think about the prison system and it's many flaws... I don't believe enough is done generally to rehabilitate inmates - often they come out feeling even less a part of society and even further disconnected from humanity. This concept not only helps those animals have a better quality of life, it also helps build a sense of community within these offenders and gives them a purpose, something to contribute to their self worth. A beautiful example of how love can heal.  

 

Credit: http://www.upworthy.com/

Rise & Shine

As Spring sets in and the days get longer, I can feel my lust for the day coming with more ease each morning. It's not quite light when I first wake up but that beautiful sunrise as I walk Finn around 7:30am is just the beautiful lift one needs for the day. 

 

"Rise and shine. I've always held such fondness for that sweet old phrase. As though we are all little Suns. As though we are all someone's Day." - Beau Taplin 

The Soul is not a Smithy

"For my own part, I had begun having nightmares about the reality of adult life as early as perhaps age seven. I knew, even then, that the dreams involved my father’s life and job and the way he seemed when he returned home from work at the end of the day. His arrival was nearly always between 5:42 and 5:45, and it was usually I who was the first to see him come through the front door. What occurred was almost choreographic in its routine. He came in already turning in order to press the door closed behind him. He removed his hat and topcoat and hung the coat in the foyer closet; he clawed his necktie loose with two fingers, took the green rubber band off of the Dispatch, entered the living room, greeted my brother, and sat down with the newspaper to wait for my mother to bring him a highball. The nightmares themselves always opened with a wide angle view of a number of men at desks in rows in a large, brightly lit room or hall. The desks were arranged in precise rows and columns like the desks of an R. B. Hayes classroom, but these were all more like the large, grey steel desks that the teachers had at the front of the room, and there were many, many more of them, perhaps 100 or more, each occupied by a man in suit and tie. If there were windows I do not remember noticing them. Some of the men were older than others, but they were all obviously adults—people who drove, and applied for insurance coverage, and had highballs while they read the paper before dinner. The nightmare’s room was at least the size of a soccer or flag football field; it was utterly silent and had a large clock on each wall. It was also very bright. In the foyer, turning from the front door while his left hand rose to remove his hat, my father’s eyes appeared lightless and dead, empty of everything we associated with his at-home persona. He was a kind, decent, ordinary looking man. His voice was deeply pitched but not resonant. Softspoken, he had a sense of humor that kept his natural reserve from seeming remote or aloof. Even when my brother and I were small, we were aware that he spent more time with us and took the trouble to show us that we were important to him a good deal more than most fathers of that era did (it was many years before I had any real idea of how our mother felt about him). The foyer was directly off of the living room, where the piano was, and at that time, I often read or played with my trucks outside of kicking range beneath the piano while my brother practiced his Hanons, and I was often the first to register the sound of my father’s key in the front door. It took only four steps and a brief sockslide into the foyer to be able to see him first as he entered on a wave of outside air. I remember the foyer as dim and cold and smelling of the coat closet, the bulk of which was filled with my mother’s different coats and matching gloves. The front door was heavy and difficult to open and close, as if the foyer were pressurized. It had a small, diamond-shaped window in the center, which we moved before I was ever big enough to see out of. He had to put his side into the door somewhat in order to make it close all the way, and I would not see his face until he turned to remove his hat and coat, but I can recall that the angle of his shoulders as he leaned into the door had the same quality as his eyes. I could not convey this quality now and most assuredly couldn’t have then, but I know that it helped inform the nightmares. His face was not at all like this on weekends off. It is in hindsight, now, that I believe the dreams to have been about adult life. At the time, I knew only their terror—much of the difficulty they complained of in getting me to lie down and go to sleep at night was due to these dreams. Nor could it always have been dusk at 5:42, though that is what I recall its being, and the inrush of outside air he brought with him as cold, and scented with burnt leaves and the sad way the street smelled at twilight, when all of the houses became the same color and all of their porch lights came on like bulwarks against something unnamable. His eyes when he turned from the door didn’t scare me, but the feeling was somehow related to being scared. Often I still had a truck in my hand. His hat went on the hatrack, his coat shouldered out of, then the coat was folded over his left arm, the closet opened with his right, the coat transferred to right hand while the third wooden coathanger from the left is again removed with the left hand. There was something about this routine that cast shadows deep down in parts of me I could not access on my own. I knew something of boredom by then, of course—at Hayes, and Riverside, or on Sunday afternoons when there was nothing to do—the fidgety type of childhood boredom that is more like worry than despair. But I do not believe I consciously connected the way my father looked at night with the far different and deeper, soul-level boredom of his job, which I knew was actuarial because in 2nd grade everyone in Mrs. Claymore’s homeroom had had to give a short presentation on what our father’s profession was. I knew that insurance was protection that adults applied for in case of risk, and I knew that it had numbers in it because of the documents that were visible in his briefcase when I got to pop its latches and open it for him, and my brother and I had had the building that housed the insurance company’s HQ and my father’s tiny window in its face pointed out to us by our mother from the car, but the actual specifics of his job were always vague. And remained so for many years. Looking back, I suspect that there was something of a cover-your-eyes and stop-your-ears quality to my lack of curiosity about just what my father had to do all day. I can remember certain exciting narrative tableaux based around the competitive, almost primitive connotations of the word breadwinner, which had been Mrs. Claymore’s blanket term for our fathers’ occupations. But I do not believe I knew or could even imagine, as a child, that for almost 30 years of 51 weeks a year my father sat all day at a metal desk in a silent, fluorescent lit room, reading forms and making calculations and filling out further forms on the results of those calculations, breaking only occasionally to answer his telephone or to meet with other insurance men in other bright, quiet rooms. With only a small and sunless north window that looked out on other small office windows in other tall grey buildings. The nightmares were vivid and powerful, but they were not the kind from which you wake up crying out and then have to try to explain to your mother when she comes what the dream was about so that she could reassure you that there was nothing like what you just dreamed in the real world" A passage from The Soul is not a Smithy by David Foster Wallace

Maysles Brothers meet Marlon Brando

The Maysles brothers and Marlon Brando, this is so good!

"People don't realise that a press item/a news item is money.. and news is hawked in the same way as shoes are, toothpaste and lipstick and hair tonic or anything else"

Nails it.

"Testing his abilities to make a genuine connection in a world of artificial warmth"

State Trooper

Currently reading Cormac McCarthy's Blood Meridian and listening to The Boss, feeling like I'd rather be working on a ranch in the wild west than working my conservative 9 - 5.

Infinite Jest

In another Variety Actors on Actors video, Bryan Cranston and Jason Segel discuss the characters they play in their latest film's - Trumbo and The End of the Tour.

Cranston's movie is based on the prolific screenwriter Donald Trumbo who was one of many 'blacklisted' by Hollywood establishments through the 40's and 50's for being a communist. It's a compelling story told in a humorous and flamboyant way. I thought it would be hard to look at Cranston and not see Walter White, but Trumbo and White couldn't be more different and he plays them both so well.

Segel plays David Foster Wallace, an American author and professor of English and creative writing who is widely known for his novel Infinite Jest (need to read this). The film sees Rolling Stones writer David Lipsky (played by Jesse Eisenberg) dismayed to hear about the death of David Foster Wallace, it follows their intimate and insightful relationship before his death. Love Jesse Eisenberg & Jason Segel - so refreshing to see him in this role.

This clip is so worth the watch, two legends conversing. A conversation I'd like to have been a part of:

The Great Dictator

"I’m sorry, but I don’t want to be an emperor. That’s not my business. I don’t want to rule or conquer anyone. I should like to help everyone - if possible - Jew, Gentile - black man - white. We all want to help one another. Human beings are like that. We want to live by each other’s happiness - not by each other’s misery. We don’t want to hate and despise one another. In this world there is room for everyone. And the good earth is rich and can provide for everyone. The way of life can be free and beautiful, but we have lost the way. Greed has poisoned men’s souls, has barricaded the world with hate, has goose-stepped us into misery and bloodshed. We have developed speed, but we have shut ourselves in. Machinery that gives abundance has left us in want. Our knowledge has made us cynical. Our cleverness, hard and unkind. We think too much and feel too little. More than machinery we need humanity. More than cleverness we need kindness and gentleness. Without these qualities, life will be violent and all will be lost. The aeroplane and the radio have brought us closer together. The very nature of these inventions cries out for the goodness in men - cries out for universal brotherhood - for the unity of us all. Even now my voice is reaching millions throughout the world - millions of despairing men, women, and little children - victims of a system that makes men torture and imprison innocent people.To those who can hear me, I say - do not despair. The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed - the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress. The hate of men will pass, and dictators die, and the power they took from the people will return to the people. And so long as men die, liberty will never perish. .....Soldiers! don’t give yourselves to brutes - men who despise you - enslave you - who regiment your lives - tell you what to do - what to think and what to feel! Who drill you - diet you - treat you like cattle, use you as cannon fodder. Don’t give yourselves to these unnatural men - machine men with machine minds and machine hearts! You are not machines! You are not cattle! You are men! You have the love of humanity in your hearts! You don’t hate! Only the unloved hate - the unloved and the unnatural! Soldiers! Don’t fight for slavery! Fight for liberty!In the 17th Chapter of St Luke it is written: “the Kingdom of God is within man” - not one man nor a group of men, but in all men! In you! You, the people have the power - the power to create machines. The power to create happiness! You, the people, have the power to make this life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure.Then - in the name of democracy - let us use that power - let us all unite. Let us fight for a new world - a decent world that will give men a chance to work - that will give youth a future and old age a security. By the promise of these things, brutes have risen to power. But they lie! They do not fulfil that promise. They never will!Dictators free themselves but they enslave the people! Now let us fight to fulfil that promise! Let us fight to free the world - to do away with national barriers - to do away with greed, with hate and intolerance. Let us fight for a world of reason, a world where science and progress will lead to all men’s happiness. Soldiers! in the name of democracy, let us all unite!" - Charlie Chaplin, 'The Great Dictator'.

GURLPOWER

Bye bye Bowie

David Bowie has left this world today. We mourn, deflated - to think that one of our greats has been taken, far too early, by cancer. At least he was here and he did what he did. 

While the mortal him is no more, the spirit of Bowie lives on.

Some quotes to remember him with, courtesy of International Business Times:

"I really had a hunger to experience everything that life had to offer, from the opium den to whatever. And I think I have done just about everything that it's possible to do" – interview with The Telegraph

"I always had a repulsive need to be something more than human. I felt very puny as a human. I thought, "F**k that. I want to be a superhuman'"

"Fame, it's not your brain, it's just the flame / That burns your change to keep you insane" – Fame lyrics

"I'm not a prophet or a stone aged man, just a mortal with potential of a superman. I'm living on" – Quicksand lyrics

"We spent endless hours talking about fame, and what it's like not having a life of your own any more. How much you want to be known before you are, and then when you are, how much you want the reverse" – recalling his conversation with The Beatles singer John Lennon to Time Out

"I think fame itself is not a rewarding thing. The most you can say is that it gets you a seat in restaurants" – interview with Q magazine in 1990

"To not be modest about it, you'll find that with only a couple of exceptions, most of the musicians that I've worked with have done their best work by far with me" – interview with Livewire's One On One

"I don't know where I'm going from here, but I promise it won't be boring" – to his audience at New York's Madison Square Garden in 1998

"The truth is of course is that there is no journey. We are arriving and departing all at the same time"

Winter

“The English winter - ending in July to recommence in August” - Lord Byron


Finn and I still haven't quite adapted to the dark mornings.





Bolt and bar the shutter,
For the foul winds blow:
Our minds are at their best this night,
And I seem to know
That everything outside us is
Mad as the mist and snow.

Horace there by Homer stands,
Plato stands below,
And here is Tully's open page.
How many years ago
Were you and I unlettered lads
Mad as the mist and snow?

You ask what makes me sigh, old friend,
What makes me shudder so?
I shudder and I sigh to think
That even Cicero
And many-minded Homer were
Mad as the mist and snow.

- W B Yeats

Truthfully I love winter; crisp sunny mornings, frost on the grass that sends dogs crazy, open fires, an extra blanket on the bed, rosy cheeks and noses, Christmas. 

It's a beautiful thing to watch the seasons change in nature if you bother to stop and notice it.